Cerita 3 Pagi

I guess my emotional bit tend to splurge out pagi pagi buta ni. What if you've met the right guy?
You know the kind of guy that will love you effortlessly , smiles to you for no reason and believes with all his heart that it doesnt matter how much your an arse or you screw up countless of times, he'd still be there loving you more and more each day.

I love it, looking at old couples knowing that there is so much bond between them, sometimes lifes so fast and unstable I ponder, will I ever know this? Will I ever get to have this? I know to some what would an 18 years old girl know about it, she's too young. But Im not, it doesnt have to be a relationship between two strangers.

I miss you Grandpa. I wish you could be here. I miss you, I met this wonderful guy and Im not ashamed to admit it , one day I'll marry him.He reminds me alot of you. So gentle and warm. He makes me happy and I have this nervousness just being around him.He has a wonderful smile and he how he smells reminds me of your old napkins the ones I used to fold and kept it in your pocket.

I miss you Grandpa, sometimes Im confused I feel like falling,like Im drowning and nobody can hear me screaming. I feel like Im suffocating. I dont want to grow up, I dont want to loose all these memories Im not ready to just let go of what grasp so long. Give me sign cause I hate this girl,looking at the mirror not knowing herself.I cant breathe at the thought of Hani your losing yourself. Please tell me, you send him to me to love me as much as you did, not a replacement but somebody to just be there.

I love you and I miss you so much.